Tuesday, April 15, 2008
disappointment
i'm sick and tired of fighting for what i want to do. i've vocalised it to the authorities (moe&nus). there seemed to be some turn around for my case. they kept to the protocol procedures.
i went for the interview only to realise i had to fight, fight to be heard, i was alone facing the numerous voices that bombarded me.
can't you see that i really want it? that i've been fighting for this since last july?
i thought you'll be the merciful one but turned out you(moe) stopped it all right when i thought i had a chance. all is gone. my plans ruined.
no more, just no more. what now? i rather not settle for something else, but firstly is this your will for me Oh Lord?!? please don't play this game with me. isn't it pretty obvious i wanted this so much. do you really have something else in store for me, am i being stubborn? but dreams are for living and fighting, now it's all taken away from me. what now?
illuminate. replace the grey skies with some sunshine and rainbow please?
i will seek ya will, and you said those who seek ya, will find ya. please guide me. i'm lost.
"We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope." Martin Luther King Jr.
jesus, may you be my only satisfaction.
all fails at one point or another, but let me know that your love never fails, your unconditional agape love. cause me to abide in it.
