Monday, September 05, 2005
so many things have happened in a brief one week.
i heard news of nise's attachment. i heard of grace's amos loving her by her sick bed. (she's well now; thank God) i have gone thru enough crap and insanity, i broke down into a fit of tears. it was swelling inside my heart, a fountain of misery waiting to burst out. cant afford with faces streaming by to break, i crumble down in my room that thurs night. man i wish i was alone in the world, so no one would hear that sound of whining cries. (is the walls in rh soundproof?)
the heartache and agony was draining every ounce of me, i couldn't take it. i called jon, chong, grace, i wish i could dial to nise. grace beloved, thanks for answering to my wail. you're my girl when it comes to desperate needs. thanks so much girl, i love you. oh well sobbed like mad at rh - my eyes were swollen? grace's hall has three cutest guy of NTU stayin there, one of them is my senior from cj. man ALEX, his smile truly chases all blues. but it was such an embarrassing moment for me.
here it goes: as mentioned my swollen eyes - i rather not see a cute guy in my most possible ugly state, he heard grace saying 'she doesn't wanna see alex', alex heard it oh well he popped his head into the room. i wish someone shot me dead instantaneously at that very moment. i had to suffer the possible humiliation he doesn't recognise me, thank goodness he did as he went 'you're my junior?' YAY to that sentence. haha he smiled and oh it did make me smile right away.
nonetheless back to reality, grieved, accussed and i wished i'm vindicated.
fri morning i've got practical. not a desirable thing to do with NO SLEEP? i went ahead with it, feeling better cause lab was pretty FUN? heh. oh well. to top it up, i enjoyed myself that night at holland v and town. thanks wheee!!
to sum up hall life and nus, i thoroughly enjoy the hectic and occupied life. musical production!! man my dream for awhile is gonna be realised in just 6 weeks. SING, dance and act. what a role i've gotten, the bitchiest model? oh well let's hope i can hit that exact frequency of a bitch? some may think i'm one already.
girlfriends, and guys, you'll be invited. sis and mum too. do come, keep 13th - 15th oct free yeah?
smuakx
